I can hear someone saying, if he was with you why wasn’t God with me when I was being traumatized?
He was, but there are a few things that make a difference.
I had elderly relatives who knew the situation, at least partially, and were talking to God about me every day. They were also loving on me and telling me about God every chance they had, which wasn’t often. I knew about him and knew to look for him in the room I’d run to in my mind. Escape from the horror.
On top of that, though my parents were running away from God he was still a topic in our home. Dad’s family was Roman Catholic and church attendance was an important and significant part of their family life. Before they were married Mom had to promise the kids would be raised Catholic.
Mom’s parents were Protestant and Grandpa was a pastor. There was angst in our home due to mom’s guilt over living a lifestyle that was heart breaking to her parents.
We never did go to church anywhere and the three of us kids were sent to public school.
I was always a super sensitive kid. Without God I probably would not have survived.
God is with all of us, always, but if we aren’t aware he exists we wouldn’t know to look for him.
God didn’t keep bad things from happening to me but I know he kept things from being much worse than they could have been.
After my third child was born Mom got back together with God. One day she shared with me about looking back over the days of her rebelliousness (oh yes, she was rebellious.) Even though she did whatever she wanted, God was still looking out for her. She could see many places in her life where he had rescued her.
As healthy parents, we never stop loving our kids (at least most of us don’t) no matter how how badly they behave.
God wants a big family and he is aware of every single child that is conceived. He loves them all. That’s mind blowing.
He’s been with you every single day, even if you don’t know it.